Sometimes I wonder if I will have enough to give her as I lug her around on my hip, tending to the other kidlets. Yet, even in my tiredness and sometime discouraging days of motherhood, I believe that she, as well as each of my other children, have been chosen of God. He planned for all of them to be my children, He planned for each of them to have 3 other siblings to share mommy and daddy with. And He planned to teach me that I cannot do this motherhood thing without relying on His strong and loving Presence in my life.
Today has been a rough day. I am tired, the kids had a rough day in school, I keep thinking today is Friday, Luci is crying herself to sleep, and fortunately Andy just took the rest of the kids on an errand with him. I have laundry to fold, dinner to start fixing, bathrooms to clean, sheets to put back on the beds, and a seemingly never-ending long list of "to do's".
My flesh cries out for some sort of break, but His Spirit says rest in Him. Finding the ability to rest in Him as I do the daily chores is the only thing that will bring me satisfaction. I don't need a vacation from my kids, I need to surrender to Him daily, asking for His help, and praising His name in the midst of chaos.
My prayer is that I can release myself to find Joy in all things. Not only for myself but for my kids, to see that it is possible.
"With God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26
"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." Romans 8:28 (Luci's verse)