Monday, August 27, 2007

brick wall

Lately I've had a bit of a "writer's block"..........
Andy and I have been doing a LOT of thinking, praying, processing, (yes, and vacationing :) about this grand life change that we are diving into. There have been moments recently where I feel like my brain is on crack, bouncing here, there, and everywhere. I feel sorry for my kids sometimes because they will be talking to me (and I will be looking directly at them) and at the end of their comment or question I will still be staring blankly at them, completely clueless as to what they said, my mind obviously in some other world. This has proven to be a day to day journey, asking the Lord to lead me, keep me alert for my kids, and get me organized. So many details (and I am NOT a detail person) to continue with and persevere through.
But I know every detail counts. God loves details.
Often I wish we could just jump through one hoop to get through selling our house, starting a non-profit, selling the majority of our stuff, buying the "right" RV, writing up letters for raising support, converting our RV to WVO, researching the "right" homeschool curriculum, making contacts with local homeless ministries, and on and on. Yes, there are a lot of details. And I am learning to take each detail that we continue to persevere through with the Lord and offer it up to Him in thanksgiving. Who am I to complain about filling out paperwork when Jesus died to give me LIFE?
I get caught up in the details and I forget about who created them. He's giving me an opportunity to worship Him with my perseverance and my attitude. He could make it easy for us and snap His fingers, but why risk the chance to mold and shape our character?
Andy and I are in this for the long haul. Not because of the needy people out there or because we want to make a point. We are in this for the long haul because this is the least we can do for our King. I am honored to hammer out some details for His glory and His Kingdom.
"Let us not become weary of doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."
Galatians 6:9

2 comments:

Mommy to Four Blessings (so far) said...

Hello from Uganda....... (www.colorfulkiddos.blogspot.com). Friend of Krystal Irwin.
I have been following your blog and want to encourage you to KEEP YOUR EYES ON ETERNITY--for this is what "it" is all about. And no matter what other "well meaning" christians say, know that you know that Jesus is everything. Read Goerge Muellers biography and be challenged and encouraged. God is constant and the "Great I AM." Sisterly love, Summer

P.S. My husband Zane McCourtney wrestled at SOU and know's your husband from an on campus christian club!

Emie said...

I LOVE YOU MY BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WORLD!!! Colossians 1:9-14 (bits and pieces) I ask God to give you a complete undertstanding of what he wants to do in your lives, and I ask him to make you wise with spiritual wisdom! . . . .I also pray taht you wil be strengthened with his glorious power wo that you will have all the patience and endurance you need. May you be filled iwth joy, always thanking the Father, who has enabled you to share in the inheritance that belongs to God's holy people, who live in the light. WISH WE COULD BE FREAKS TOGETHER ON THE SAME CONTINENT!! SOMEDAY I PRAY! love you dearly, em